I'm Amazing...I Know, I Didn't Believe It Either

I got to hear his voice today! He didn't have the weekend off, so it was only a few whispered minutes on the phone when the guys were supposed to be asleep. Do I mind? Not in the least! I'm just so happy I got to hear his voice and see how he's doing and tell him how much he means to me and that I'm thinking of him...that's all that's important right now. I truly believe that he's an amazing boyfriend and that I'm the luckiest girl in the world, but today he turned it around on me. I never thought that I was anything special, that waiting for him and being supportive of something that means so much to him was anything to be proud of...it's just who I am. Nothing in that made me think "Oh, I'm an amazing girlfriend" so it was nice to hear, nice to know that all I have to do is follow my heart. I'm not used to someone insisting that "No, really...you're amazing." "Silly talk!" but I'm certainly not complaining!

This weekend he's getting off on Thursday, and I can't wait to talk to him and see his face again (not to mention the little green light I've been missing dearly for the past week). My soldier and I have been together for nearly two years now, and I never dreamed that all this would happen, that he would end up so far away, and that somehow I'd find the strength, the courage, and the love to handle the distance. But it's worth it, every moment of it...still. I miss and love my soldier with all my heart. Talk to you soon, love! <3

That Little Green Light

For me, the light at the end of the tunnel is a little green light with a check mark on it. Thank you Skype for giving me hope and for bringing me just a little bit closer to my soldier today. A year ago I never would have realized the feelings of anticipation, relief, and comfort that a funny-shaped little button could induce, and now it's my reality. Sometimes it's hard to imagine 6,000 miles between us when he looks close enough to reach out and touch...both a blessing and a curse...but I live for those moments, the moments that make the weeks worth waiting, that remind me how much every second counts, that make all of the emotions and the times when I tell myself "if only he were here he could fix everything" a little bit easier.

Every time I see that little green light light up I know that he's okay, that I'm one step closer to seeing him again, and I know that no matter what happens I need to keep putting one foot in front of the other...and each step will take me closer to him. Yes, that little green light gives me courage, and every time it goes out I know I'm in for two long weeks before I'll see it (and him) again. But once in a while it flickers on for a few minutes during the week and it makes me smile as I frantically try to type a message before it goes out again. For now, I'll take comfort in it while I still can and prepare to face two more weeks knowing that love finds its way to us wherever we are...and that I love him.